Autumn Greetings From my Creative Universe
A sneak-peak into an odd creative journey – plus an introduction to my system of the 9 Dreams and my upcoming course on the Enneagram
Hello everybody! It's been some time since my last letter. The last months, I've been very focused on the development of a specific writing project – which also looks to be my first online offering through Tunsberg Tantra. I wanted to share with you a bit on that project today, and also of my creative journey developing it. Cause it’s been a pretty odd creative journey, that’s been far from straight-forward.
Can I write my way back to sanity?
In the autumn of 2018, I sat in Australia and felt like everything I had thought was ME were being torn apart. I felt like I was dying. I had sold my home back in Norway and had nothing to return to. I had few friends around me, and no perspective of what my future held. All I knew, was that the me I had been up to now, needed an upgrade.
That upgrade though, had turned out to be much more… violent I would nearly say, than I had imagined it to be. And to keep myself sane somehow through this intense changing and shifting within and around me, I started writing: Pages upon pages of everything I felt I had misunderstood, and how I maybe could correct it.
When I returned to Norway in the late winter of 2020, there were more than thousands of those pages – and they were a mess. Notes upon notes, no system, just lots of thoughts needing to find their way to the paper.
And I sat there, in the basement of my parents’ house, wondering: What now? And… I decided I would sort my notes.
In the three years that’ve passed since then, I've questioned that decision many times. By today, I'm still not fully done sorting my notes. But (to my great relief) the last half year or so, some structures have gradually started falling into place: one by one by one.
My work with these notes has been an intriguing and sometimes-neurotic journey of following my intuition to see where it takes me. Basically: I've spent several hours every day for the last three years: diving into my notes to explore what they contain – or even if they contain something at all.
Points for bravery to me! Or madness, I'm not completely sure yet.
Today, my notes are sorted into 5 main frameworks. I’ve made a book draft on creativity: exploring what it actually takes to bring a vision into physical manifestation. Then, I have a sketch for an empowerment course: what to do when we find ourselves in a life that isn’t our highest choice – and we don’t even have an idea of what we actually dream about? Document number three is a tantric manifesto. And, then there is a huge document with essays on womanhood: What is unique with a feminine spiritual path? How does our sexual conditioning interfere with our yearning to awaken? And what role does our feeling world play in our awakening process?
All of these projects of course, reflect on topics that’s been important for me on my personal healing journey.
(And I'm thinking, when I finally complete one of these projects, I've proven to myself that I was brave all that time – not just mad.)
The 9 dreams: System, sanity and the enneagram of personality types
The last document is the strangest one. In 2020, I named the sketch for this project “The 9 Dreams”, and I've kept that name.
The 9 Dreams are inspired by my work with the Enneagram of Personality Types. For those of you that don’t know that system: it’s a widely used personality system based on 9 archetypes. My mentors through my reconstruction journey used the Enneagram a lot, and for the three years I studied with them, much of what we worked with, was framed as lessons on our Enneagram archetypes.
And therefore, I sort of started thinking about sanity in 9 chapters.
I began outlining the dreams in 2019 and continued working with them through 2020. I even presented some of them through my Instagram. But then, I put them aside cause my attempts of systemizing sanity in 9 theses… seemed insane.
Then this year, the dreams reappeared. I couldn’t stop thinking about them. And for the last few months, 9 chapters have been slowly falling into place. I'm still working on how to present this project – cause it’s a bit strange. But somehow, this project is also the juiciest of my writings. It carries life force.
I guess that’s because it’s my very personal – and at the same time very systematic – way of retracing my… love for life.
The Enneagram has been my personal anchor in the creative process with The 9 Dreams, and of course, if you study the dreams and know the Enneagram system, you’ll get the opportunity to trace my line of thought in-depth. You can even join my up-to-now-solo-discussion if I’ve succeeded in finding the crux universal lesson of each archetype?
But, that said, you don’t NEED to know anything the Enneagram to understand The 9 Dreams. First and foremost, The 9 Dreams is an attempt to explain 9 collective misunderstandings, and how they keep us from creating the lifes we love. The 9 Dreams are my manifesto for a sane, joyful and supportive society – in 9 chapters.
Basically: My aim with The 9 Dreams is to present A SYSTEM FOR SUCESSFUL RECONSTRUCTION. Both on an individual and a collective level.
I'm gonna make a sum-up of the dreams in my next letter. For now I just wanted to pop by and say hi and share a bit of my creative process with you.
I also wanted to share the news that if all goes well, I'm gonna start sharing The 9 Dreams this upcoming spring, through my online course-in-making: Awakening Through the Enneagram. If you're interested, there’s a bit more info om that up on my website!
Thank you for joining me into my creative mind! Stay tuned for more letters on the Enneagram, creativity, conscious relations and shadow work! If you want to follow me more up-close, I share on Instagram too. These days, it’s all about my little forest cottage and creating a life in harmony with nature there.